A Late Letter to Lanang

It must be October, but it’s already November. Sorry for my late letter. Lanang, somehow you know that this world is full of uncertainty and full of foul men. Somehow you know that I don’t want to be a fool. “Have you found a man who will give his time to care and love you everyday? How about if you can’t find him?” If I can’t find him, I’ll just marry my job, Lanang. But, the good news that u need to know is, I think I already found him. That man, the one who will always try to win my heart, just like the first time he try to do. The one who will read a fairytale for me before I go to sleep, the one who will completely open to listen and discuss everything with me, the one who will see me deeply, the one who will stand with me to watch the sunrise till the sunset come, the one who will stay with me no matter how hard to understand me, the one who will never tired to convince me so that I can trust my heart to him. Am I so fortunate, Lanang?

I don’t even know, but whenever I talk to him, I don’t even want to stop to talk. There must be so much things I want to share with him. About my life, my dream, my happiness, even my fear, my tear, my scar as well. I just feel I will be fine whenever with him. I must be fall in love with him, deeply and straightforwardly. Lanang, if he is a poem, he will always be my favorite, the most interesting and breathtaking. And if he is a song, he will always be the sweetest and loveliest. He can never be died, in my head. Can you believe that?

Lanang, I hate to say this yet he is the one who I can’t go a day without I am thinking about and I hate to say I love the way he say ‘good morning’ or ‘good night’ to me. You know what does it mean? It means that he is thinking of me before he go to sleep and remember me after he wake up every morning.  Ah, I want he knows that he means so much to me and how about me? for him? I hope I can also mean the whole world to him. “You have not to expect anything back.” So, have I need to be afraid? To expect too much? Yet as far as I can remember, my day is much prettier when I was with him. After all, I suppose that every each of us need a home, a home where the dweller can never have any enough word to say ‘I want to leave’, a home where the dweller can always have any good word to say ‘I want to come back’.  Can you agree with me?

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With Love,

@rintikkecil  

You can also read my previous letter to Lanang...

A Letter from October to Lanang in http://rintikkecil.blogspot.co.id/2014/10/a-letter-from-october-to-lanang.html

Dear Lanang in http://rintikkecil.blogspot.co.id/2014/02/dear-lanang.html