Dear Lanang

“Don’t too much thinking about what they are thinking and talking about you. What they know is just your name. Not you. Not your life. Come on, you are beautiful with your own way.” Lanang, it has been so long I am not get kind of sentence that can return my confidence. And yes, you are right! I always have a choice in this life; to stay or leave. I know, what I need is  the real ones who can appreciate me for who I am. Thank you for make me feel better. I really need that kind of support right now. *Big Hug*

No more drama. No more tears. I promise, I will back to be the real me. Without worries, without fears. Hey, I am not just pretend to be okay. I am completely okay. I promise, I will enjoy for every single moment I have. 

One thing added before forget, I know I need a line as border. Just like what you said, it’s not worth for me waiting for him that can't give a certainty. I will meet someone that afraid to lose me. A guy that can bring a warm smile and can fix the aches and pains. A guy that can handle me even at my worst. A guy that can make you say, "Hold him. He will bring a happiness for you." From now on, I am surrender, and lead a new world has begun. *Take a better breathe*

Lanang, you are not fake. That’s why I trust you. Let's just talking without judging each other. Let’s become a good friend forever. Wait, suddenly I remember our last conversation. Hahaha well as my compliment, I will sing this song for you tonight.

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♫ And if you don't mind, can you tell me all your hopes and fears. And everything that you believe in.. Would you make a difference in the world. I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation. Only you can make me.. ♫

P.S : Btw, I like your name. I will make your name as my future child’s name. Someday :p